Boys are weird.

Why is that when you tell a friend who is a boy that you like them they go all crazy!  Except they always end up asking you why you really like them and if you like like them. WHy is it that they keep saying that? And when you friend tells you personal things about a girl you don't like it gets really awkward. Cause I don't go that personal when I'm talking about boys. The most personal thing I ever told my friend about a boy is that I like them. Thats how far I go. But no boys are so different because they tell you right to your face depending on how close you are, that they want to f*** the girl right now. And I find that messed up. If I ever said that to them then they would never talk to me and they would be creeped out. But I just say nothing time to time. But when it goes to far then I start getting annoyed. Ughhhhhh. OH and they always act like they are jealous. Which is also confusing.

Lying and Telling the Truth.

Why is it that when you tell a guy you like them and it isn't the truth,.. they believe you. Except when you are actually telling them the truth they don't believer you. Except its the same people. Like today i told Shariar that i thought he was cute and he said that i was lying. Even though i was doing it as a joke, I actually was telling him the truth. And the other day,  I told Bradley that i thought he was hot and he was serious shocked and didn't know how to respond. Boys are confusing. I'm serious. But even though i say things as a joke, there are times when i mean it. But they are too dumb to actually realize it. Just saying I can be a really bad liar.

Kevin!!!

Oh my gosh! Should I give Up? I deserve more than Kevin! If he cant get over the fact that Siai dumped him, then he is just sad! He acts like he doesn't care but I know he does. He likes playing with peoples heads because he knows if he gets too close then he will end up the same. Heartbroken. I hate him. I know I might sound crazy but trust me im not! Im not even close to being crazy. And I know only a crazy person would be saying that except this all started as a joke and Kevin took it all serious so I played along cause he was just scared. I feel like he will be alone cuz he hates being close to people.

At School

Listening to victoria complain to me about class today. We saw this video and learned more about the Flying Spaghetti Monster. Victoria keeps trying to sing and i keep pleading for her to stop. SHe says that im jealous and that i know for fact that she knows how to sing. GUess what? she doesnt know when my birthday. What kind of friend doesnt know my birthday? Whats wrong with the world?

WHY Kevin?

WHy doesnt kevin love me anyone? i gave him everything and this is what i get. SAdness. I hate that siai is still on his mind. I have to get rid of her. But dont call me crazy. I introduced him to my math teacher and find out that there is someone else in his life that he never told me about. BEIng dumped is sad but i know he didnt mean it. I have ignored him for more that a week and he always expects me to bother him. I will get him back. I know that he expects him to try to get him back. He is playing hard to get.

I miss new York

I miss New York....well not that much. Who knew that if you stay away from your family's homeland, you can forget how things are. I seriously forgot how hot it was here in Dominican Republic.But it gets worse. the bugs here are just abusive, biting people when no one is paying attention. Ohhh I almost forgot about the power going out every couple of times during the day. And it drives me crazy at times. But apparently I have been dealing with it since Saturday. Except saturday doesn't really count because i arrived in DR at 4 in the morning. But dont worry Im coming back on the 27th.

Friends can also be BACKSTABBERS

Sometimes friends are just backstabbers. You tell them one thing and they go behind your back and do something that can be very depressing. If thats happened to you well i know what it feels like. The situation of backstabbing happened to me today. A friend who i will not name told me that she likes this guy and she didnt want me to judge her when she was about to tell me. And the worse part is that i liked the same guy. And i told my close friends about it. SO all of a sudden she has a crush on this guy? Thats when you know something doesnt add up. I'm am so annoyed right now you have no idea. I felt like crying because i actually started like this guy and he might like me back but i will never because this "friend" is in the same class as the guy we both like. You can never trust anyone anymore